Day One

Ah. The first day of Chinese New Year. I've collected enough ang pow to satisfy my selfish desire. I have roughly eight at the moment and probably get about five to ten in the next 14 days. I have no qualms about receiving them just my consciousness is telling me about those people that I took from. (Refering to my previous post). It is better this year, for me at least, to see my extended family visiting and setting a more joyful atmosphere. My nephew and nieces have all grown up now (duh) and now working or furthering their studies in their respective fields. My only regret is that I don't know my cousins, nephews and nieces. I should keep in touch with them. I should get to know them better. I wish I have better opportunity but I only see them once a year. Funny, I see my friends more than I see my own flesh and blood. Yes, I know it's normal but should it be like so? It's like it's normal to run through a red light but should you do it?

Out of touch, out of mind.

That is what I fear too. I have not been close with my elders...for several reasons of course but I don't have a reason NOT to be close to my cousins (okay some I do have problems communicating with but not all) but not my newphes and nieces. I got a hold of one of my nieces's e-mail and now part of my "friends" in friendster.

But this is what new year is all about. A new year, a new opportunity to learn, grow, change and hope. I've written about what is hope to a person in my other blog (haha! I won't tell you what is the link) and with this new year, I hope that I could be closer to those I have not been close to. Keeping in the dark is fine with me if you are an introvert but it is still not good to lose ties with your kin, especially if you can do it then by all means do it.

This year, with this day being anew in my perspective, creates a hope that I hope to nurture it and fulfill it. Yes, it is a good day for me indeed. Happy holidays.