28th March, 2006

Yesterday was an unhappy day for me because of some personal issue that came into my life. I then decided to walk around a neighbourhood. It's a nice middle-middle class neighbourhood with a football (soccer for the North Americanos) field. As I walked around block, I kinda peep into the homes through the opened windows and since it was dinner time, there are families having dinner.

I smiled at the dinner scene.

Here I am, thinking about my problems and looking at the serene dinner setting those stranger were having, really puts something in my mind. The walls of home. That was what came into my mind. The protective walls of home seems to help elevate your downcast soul and eating with your family seems to have therapeutic capabilities when you know, even subconsciously, that you are within walls of love, walls of security, walls of comfort.

I'm out here thinking about my own problems when these people eating dinner with faces of comfort. Though I bet that they have their own problems too but it just seem for that one instant the problems were put to one side and left alone, even for a while, to eat with comfort. I then look at myself and try to see that the problems I have from an outsider, then it became clear to me that I too could have that and was envious that those people have it. So I walked tall once more, knowing well that I have love in my heart to carry me through. The love I got inside is an accumulation of love from my God, Esther, my family, my friends, etc.

I smiled again and went for my dinner.

Till next time folks.