Beyond my horizon

Looking at my wallet the past few days made me think hard, very hard, on what to do with my remaining money. Not much, it may or may not get me by till end of the month. It would be two more weeks till I get my next cheque and another three days for it to clear. I have a little extra reserved for any emergencies. Sigh. Some reserve it seem. Just a couple of hundred bucks. Where did all my money go to? Plenty of places. Most of it not for myself or at least not for my own pleasure. My car, my immediate family, insurance, the likes. So I'll have to find some way to stretch my money's worth for the next two weeks. Problem is my car's paint looks pretty bad now, actually more worse than the last time I'd checked. So it would be time for me to cough out 1,700 bucks to repaint my car. I just checked my tires and it seems that I need to get them changed too, soon, but not yet. So I need to allocate some amount for that as well. The price of having a car.

But you know what? Funny thing is, I'm still not worried. In fact, I am still in control of my stuff. Yes, I sometimes induldge myself in a game or two (or three) with a "boys-night-out" session but that's much less than before. Averaging once a week or even less. So what am I going to do? I'm going to watch myself more closely this time. I already cleared most of my bank debts (credit card debts are sssoooo hard to clear off). So I'm okay with this "no money but not much in debt" situation.

If I do have some spare cash what would I do? First of all, it would depend on the amount. If the amount is at a five hundred bucks extra. I would probably fix my tires. If I have an extra of a thousand? I won't do a single thing. Wait a bit longer to accumulate a bit more then I would repaint my car. If I have a couple of thousand. Hmmm... I would do both my tires and paint my car at the same time. If I have five thousand? I would use two thousand to fix my car and the remainder to go on a holiday with Esther and probably let her buy some stuff that she likes (I know she just loves those cute artistic stuff that they sell at those kiosks). However, these are just my wishes. Possible but still a wish for now. Hmmmm... dream first. Accomplish later. Walt Disney always reminds people that "if you can dream it, you can do it". The thing that stops people from achieving it is the "doing" part. So what's beyond my horizon? My reality that has yet to come true. Adios.