Feb 24, 2006

It's the weekend folks, I hope to enjoy mine and hope you would enjoy yours too. Today is a good day. I finished my class early, and I mean very early. It suppose to be a five day class but I did it in four and half day. No point for me to drag the class unnecessarily and the participants have learned something from my class (at least that's what I would assume), I gotten good evaluation from the course and they have the whole half day to themselves. Which is good for one of them, he is sick and having fever. So he's really happy about it. Next week, boy, oh boy. More time for myself. I don't have classes for next week but I do need the tiime to brush up on whatever technology that I need to do and research. Probably I would do just that: research. To show of good faith in my work and to my boss. Oh well, I'm going home now for dinner and see how it goes from there.

Hey you people out there, check this link out eh? It's another person's blog that shows celebrities when they were kids.


Young Celeb

Feb 23rd, 2006

Okay, nothing is going on today that is worth a title. I'm now coaching one of the two green horns and it's promising. I'm just coaching the best I can although I'm not good but this young chap is shoing some promises. Is he going to take over my position? Why do some seniors believe that the juniors are out to get their position? Now looking at my junior, I am not afraid that he would take over me by force but by his character where he would be good and the boss would lose faith in me and I would be like yesterday's newspaper.

I'm afraid. Not.

I guess most seniors would feel good if they have a good surbordinate and they feel that the surbordinate happens to be on the winning team (yours). But will the seniors feel threatened and may sour the relationship? The obvious answer is, depends. I was from a similar situation. I went in there with good promises and begin to learn and my immediate boss was good towards me and then find ways to pin-point faults later in my working career in the company. It seemed that he, my immediate supervisor, was afraid that I would take over his position. So to make the story short, before long, I was pressured out of the company.

Now, looking at this youngster, I guess I am not afraid and would give myself some comfort zone. If it is to be, then it needs to be. As Rico (from Starship Troopers) would say, "I'll take this job...till I'm dead or you find someone better". So I'm coaching two rookies now and see how it goes from there.

Happy Birthday Rachel

Today is Rachel's birthday. So wishing her a happy birthday and hope you can share some of your spoils with us.




Last night I had a dream. No. Make it a nightmare. I dreamt that I was half-bald. Yup. I lost most of my beloved hair. I remembered bits and pieces and it was like I went and wash my hair, dried it with my towel and started to comb it. Then I was shocked, very shocked to find out that my hair lost most of it from the inner section, the section that is hardly seen. So I quickly brushed my hair but softly so that I won't frighten the rest of my hair off and try to cover the balding part. Sigh. I then try not to stand any place where there's wind. I sighed to myself.

I woke up, keep going through my hair and yup, most of it still here. A sigh of relief. I've notice that I actually put something of value to my hair and I'd never done that before. Probably I got lots of it and so I took my hair for granted (if you want to call it that) and it's probably a good thing too so that I would be reminded of the little, little things that I've taken for granted. Sounds familiar? Here's the problem, there are just too many things that you and I have taken things for granted and too many things for us to take a check list to figure out what we have missed. So how do we keep abreast of the little other things that we've taken for granted? How do we follow up too? The answer? Reality check.

You cannot remember all those you've taken for granted. Not even your love ones, not even your shoe and not even the chair that you're sitting on. All these things to most of us have taken it for granted and it seems endless with our limited ability to remember things. So how do you avoid this problem then? Since you can't, then make lemon-aid. Learn how to accept failures but keep your chin up. Learn to avoid and sometimes remind yourself that you are but human (to err is human). If things have taken for granted, and something bad did happened. Make sure you are not doing out of malice and try to fix it. Fixing things with honesty means alot. Even those people who taken friendship for granted, with honesty and sincerity, friendship could be mend but not without scars. It's like a favourite cup once broken, it could be mend but the seams could still be seen. Friendship, however, could ignore the seams totally. Betrayal, works of malice and other dishonest acts however, would not be able to be mend so nicely. My moral of my blog? If you want to mess things, make sure it's not because of dishonesty and other bad stuff. It would be an easier life to live and carry on living.

21st Feb, 2006

You know, if my title is actually the date I write, I would be either zoned out or I just don't know what to write for the title for my post.

Today is not a bad day. Pretty sunny and not raining every evenings like the past week. So things are pretty good for me too. I ended my class early and I've decided to write a post. I discovered other blogs as well. Some are well maintained and some are not. I stumbled unto my friend's blog and it was a funny thing to read the other person's blog that you know and it's a good funny and not a 'make fun of' funny. It's a blog about this girl's relationship and it seems that she writes her blog regarding her relationship with her boyfriend and I too know her boyfriend. Both are my friends, though they had some rough times together but things are better now. So that's good. Very good and I'm happy for them too. What I didn't know was what he has done and how he has treated her and that's the funny part. It's good to know how your friends' are doing. I wish them well.

So if there are people out there who knows me and wondering if I'm truely happy now, my answer is "I'm fine and doing well". I'm not on top of the world but I'm hanging in some areas. I'm looking forward to have some time for myself a little bit more and do meditation and honest prayer. That is one thing I lack at the moment. Other than that, I'm happy and content. I know that God is waiting for me and I shall not delay any more than I should.

Ah....new home?

I have a new home now for my blog and I hope not to move anymore cause it took me like forty five minutes to move my old posts from my old blog to my new blog. It would be worse in future when I write more posts. Anyway,

I got two rookies under me right now and I'd guess it was partly my fault. You see, when I join my company I was groping in the dark for answers. So I then said to my boss, "I've had it with you guys leaving me in the dark! So from now on, all green horns pass to me". Well, no so much along the words but yeah, I'm taking initiative to coach two rookies to learn from me. I'm still a rookie but had my share of bumps and bruises so I'll take the lead. Other seniors? Sigh, their philosophy is, "I've made it through the bumps and the bruises I got and so should you". My philosophy is, "I've gone through it, I didn't like it, I'll show the younger ones how to avoid it."

I just hated it. I was wondering in the dark, got shot down at because I was not good enough and all these while my seniors never, ever showed me the path. Except one. He gave me a hand to help me take my first step forward and gave me a reachable target. Wtih each target reached, I moved on to the next. Sigh. After so long, I have finally reached a point of "I can now stand alone". So I'm looking at the rookies when they first came in, then I went to have a chat with my bosun and he said, "that's good" and that was that. I was sure that he also means, "okay, we'll do it your way".

So I have two unofficial padawans. Wait, that's not right. Jedi master's could have only one "student". Hmmm....oh well. Let's see if I can train them right, hopefully they won't learn my bad habits too (or vice versa). They are with me but not in black and white so I'll do my initiation anyway. Hope they'll benefit from my limited experience.