14 days of Bachelorhood - Day 2

Raining season. Sigh. Love it. Hate it. I guess it depends if you look at it from a different angle. Love it. Yeah. Cools you down. This country of ours is known to be hot. In fact, as Thomas @ Supremo would say it, "we have four seasons. Hot, HOTTER. Wet, WETTER". From here, we can safely deduce we are in the season of WETTER (we're also in the season of Lent but that's a different story).

This picture is taken from www.thestar.com.my (our local newspaper). The next picture is taken from the same source which was photographed near Esther's place.

Sigh. It's a pity that the earth turned against us humans ever since The Fall of Man. Man could only hope for the earth to be less violent so that the pain is less frightening. I bet those people that were caught in the violent storm was wondering if they were going to make it to their destination or not. It is scary and even for me I'll bet that I would be shaken up too but this doesn't mean that our lives is not like driving the road (I feel philosophic today) too. There are times when we have our own problems that comes to us, I'm going to quote a friend of mine (I'm just full of quotes today):

"As captain planet would say, "when the powers combine…" I'd finish that line off with "I am the big whammie of the week!" one day with two hard hitters."

Having said that, we too know that times like those are pretty hard. Sometimes it is so hard it feels as though it manage to break us. When it does, our knowledge of happiness seemed only but a dream. Of course, friends, family and other factors comes to play and do save us. Over coming ones ego to talk and seek help (and prayer too) before the trouble manages to break us down completely. Anyway, this is a simplified version (for longer explaination, please ask me for tea). Till then, bye folks.

14 days of Bachelorhood - Day 1

Sleepy. Tired. A bit of worry feeling. Yup. I'm having all three. Waking up at 3:30 am just to send my dear Esther to Nepal. Driving to the airport is fine but coming back was a torture. Nearly fell asleep while driving. Boy was I sleepy then and am I sleepy now. Took several cups of coffee but still feeling sleepy. Slept in office too but for a short while. Anyway, hope she'll be fine. I'm sure she will but just saying that is more for myself to calm down.

Having said that... let me tell you about a joke. Okay. A lame joke but I'm going to tell you anyway.

A faucet, a cabbage and a tomato were having a race to try to see who is faster. At half way point, cabbage was ahead, the faucet was running second and the tomato was trying to catch up (ketchup).

P/s: Aileen, I'll change my picture. Yes, I know it's all worn out and I need a new pic. Hopefully I would be able to dig a nice picture of myself somewhere.

Fears of tomorrow

I had to miss the blogging opportunity yesterday because of my appointment. A particular friend of mine was seeking help from moi since I know computers. Problem is I'm not good in THAT particular area that he was seeking assistance in. So I had to pull someone else from outside and this outside friend to help out. It went well. About an hour and a half of meeting, it went rather well. All my partner was asking is, how much can he get out of this "consultation". Sigh. I guess I'll have to push my side to find some sort of renumeration. Actually I don't mind taking a bit of it myself. Not too much since I didn't do most of the job, just a fraction but I'm taking 25% while my partner takes 75%.

Today is my last day with Esther. Tomorrow morning she's flying off. She's going to the top of the world (or very close to the top). Yup. She's going to Nepal for ministry for a total period of 14 days. So what does this make me? Very scared. I always have this fear of travelling long distance. Even for me or anyone else. I have this fear that something bad might happen and I would be blaming myself (if I'm not already dead) for the incident. I don't know why. I should have more faith in myself and God (most of all) but I just can't help feeling edgy...you know...apprehensive. I suppose to have 14 days all by myself (bachelor again, and I can do whatever I want during my free time now) but I have these "whatifs" in my head. Oh I don't know.

I don't have the fear of travelling ten years back, in fact, it was more the other way round but ever since I started my career, I have this fear of travelling long distance and I'll never see anyone again. Geeze. You heard me on one of my fears in my life being told via internet. Sigh. I hope that things does turn out well, inspite of the turmoil in Kathmandu (political protests and country under military control is being carried out over there right now) I still have some comfort in God taking care of Esther. If not, hey, I'll see her in Heaven again right? Darn. I'm feeling very melancholic now. Sigh. Somebody slap me. Oh well, I guess I have to learn not to worry about this isn't it. Prayer helps, so I'll do that more fervently now.

Over and out.

What is a "Monday"?

Things today ran pretty smooth. Meaning it wasn't like my second job where I had fears of coming into my office on Monday. Monday was a day of fear back then. Thinking about that time just gives me the shivers. *Shudder*.

Stepping into my office on a bad day(previously), could range from a server is down (above medium alert) to a user got himself/herself locked out because of typing wrong passwords (very minor problem). Major problem is when someone hacked into the system or someone forged one of our products. Products? Yeah. Sales people talk. Even though the product is a cheque (or check for North American) we still calls it a product. So it would be a big thing if the product got forged. Anyway, back then things like that just cropped up on Monday because over the weekend, my Managing Director would receive news regarding our cheques (or checks) being rejected or accepted or any other thing that may have happened during the weekend.

Thank God that's over and now in my past.

Monday these days means coming into office. Open the front door if I'm early. Set my computer to connect to internet. Wait for my breakfast buddy (or he waits for me if he's early) and go and have breakfast. Come back from breakfast, start to do research. Then in between office hours could play a computer game (or two) and hope not to get caught and continue to do research till lunch and repeat till clock struck 5:30 or so.

If I do happen to have classes to train, then, it would just mean no breakfast and start to do training from the time I come in, lunch, continue till 5:00. Half an hour to pack and check e-mails and then off I go.

Not bad eh? I think so. Much better than my average Monday in my previous job description. Only thing is, research must be done in order to conduct training properly. That's the key to being a trainer. Keeping up-to-date is vital for a successful training. Knowing a trainers job, a trainer must continue to test the concepts that he/she is instructing. No point telling people how to fix a problem when the instructor isn't sure but only to say "theoreticaly can work". Proof-of-concept is the utmost important. Everything else is extra.

Besides that, nothing much to say. No funny remarks/line. This is Brian reporting. Over and out.