Day of Fools

April Fool's day. Nothing to fool about. My car's break pads needs changing and my car doesn't fool me. Sigh. More money to my car. Come to think of it, I haven't been taking care of my car of late and its slacking on my part and worse of all, it's showing. Sigh. That's the thing, I was taking car of it well initially then I did one of the most common mistake; take things for granted.

Anything else to note? Not much. Celebrated Esther's birthday the other day with a nice Tiramisu cake, coupled with dinner at a nice, sweet Italian restaurant. She had lasagne and I had a lamb shank. What else? I gave her some cash to buy herself a nice dress. She loves those. Oh well. Maybe I could come up with something from my own effort for her next year. May be. Just may be.

Knew It Wouldn't Last

This week seemed like a bad week for just about everyone I know. Not all but just about. I have my own problems that I had to avoid (can't be fix so avoidence is necessary). I found out that my friend's mom is now hospitalized and diagnosed with cancer and everyone is trying to keep the chin up. I also found out a friend who got into a car accident and was asked to pay the damages even though it wasn't her fault, etc. Sigh. I knew it wouldn't last. Last few weeks was a bliss. Just a regular day at work, going to work and coming back from work, etc. It was good. Nothing much happened but it was not bad. Starting this week, things began to change to the worse for some bad for others.

I know how all of you guys and gals must be feeling right now. I too share the burden of life but hang in there, knowing that there are few of us that finds solace with one another. Hang in there people of the world, the law-of-averages may just prevail. Law-of-averages means "on the average". So if there are 10 good things in your life and there is 2 bad things in your life, then "on the average" it's 2 of 10 bad or 8 of 10 good. So hang in there, can't be all that bad.

28th March, 2006

Yesterday was an unhappy day for me because of some personal issue that came into my life. I then decided to walk around a neighbourhood. It's a nice middle-middle class neighbourhood with a football (soccer for the North Americanos) field. As I walked around block, I kinda peep into the homes through the opened windows and since it was dinner time, there are families having dinner.

I smiled at the dinner scene.

Here I am, thinking about my problems and looking at the serene dinner setting those stranger were having, really puts something in my mind. The walls of home. That was what came into my mind. The protective walls of home seems to help elevate your downcast soul and eating with your family seems to have therapeutic capabilities when you know, even subconsciously, that you are within walls of love, walls of security, walls of comfort.

I'm out here thinking about my own problems when these people eating dinner with faces of comfort. Though I bet that they have their own problems too but it just seem for that one instant the problems were put to one side and left alone, even for a while, to eat with comfort. I then look at myself and try to see that the problems I have from an outsider, then it became clear to me that I too could have that and was envious that those people have it. So I walked tall once more, knowing well that I have love in my heart to carry me through. The love I got inside is an accumulation of love from my God, Esther, my family, my friends, etc.

I smiled again and went for my dinner.

Till next time folks.