A recognition to songwriters/singers

I was searching for the lyrics for "To where you are" by Josh Groban and I stumbled onto a forum. What surprised me is the number of people touched by this song. It's a marvelous song that performed by a talented, impressive singer that brings out the true essence of the song. The lyrics, combined with the voice and heart of Josh Groban, proved to me that songwriters and singers alike could still provide a channel for people who could not find words to express their deep feelings. Feelings that they now could identify by listening is subtle, yet powerful enough to move even their budensome lives. The death of love ones could not be expressed easily. This song provides a channel to express their love to the ones that were lost.

I was thinking of what to write about my 100th post in this blog but I was touched once more by this song and so I wrote a post about this song. It's something that most of us keep forgetting and you have songs like this to remind your past and get in touch with your inner heart. Stop, listen to your heart and you'll find something you have lost. A. L., if you're reading this, it's for your mom also.

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Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory's so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You'r still an inspiration
Can it be
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dreams
And isn't faith believing
All powers can't be seen
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me
Everyday
Cause you are mine
Forever love
Watching me from up above
And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are.

(By Josh Groban )
(Lyrics were composed by Linda Thompson)
(Music by Richard Marx)

After 10 years

My gold fish finally gave it's last breath. I missed my goldfish (Carassius auratus). Sigh. It wasn't a pretty to look at. In fact, it's pretty plain. It wasn't expensive but quite the opposite. I bought it cheap. It was mine nonetheless. I took care of it together with others. I had half a dozen in all. Then one by one they died.

They were happy but one by one they died due to my negligence. I blamed myself for this for I didn't take care of them until it was too late. My first one died after jumping off from the aquarium from five feet high. The second, third and so on died because of disease. My last was the strongest and therefore last the longest. Again it died of some disease. Most disease could have prevented if I were just a bit more diligent in changing the water. Normally I would change the water every week; two weeks would be pushing it. I was a bit too lazy and waited for my third week. It then got infected and by then it was too late.

Now, my bigger aquarium is empty except the smaller aquarium still house a small x-ray species. One, just one. It use to have a pair but that other half had an inherent disease. I was surprised that it lasted as long as it did. It was handicapped in a way and therefore making swimming difficult, making feeding hard. The body was born twisted but it lasted for a total of four years on that one. Now my single fish is six years old. Very long life for a "tetra" sized fish (size of two finger-nail's length). My poor goldfish, lasted as long as it did, was a fighter and I was happy to own it. I did everything I could initially to make it look beautiful but the inferior species just couldn't be changed. It was cheap and I was doing everything I could to make it better but the scales were as dull as any of the inferior species. I was proud to have it anyway.

I proved to many that the goldfish is a hardy fish. It is hardy if you change the water (1/3 of the tank) every week or so. Everything would be fine. Now it is gone. I no longer have to worry every time I were to go camping and whatnot. However, I still have my x-ray fish (you could see the internal organs of the fish) to take care of. I think I'll go and buy a companion for it. The x-ray fish is a community fish and should not be alone. I think I'll buy three or four. I think I'll do it sometime this week. Happy week ahead.

Wound that healed

I do believe that wounds heals slowly for a reason. All wounds, no matter what kind of wounds, (be it emotional, physical or whatever) take its time to heal. Although some takes longer than others to heal and some people heal faster than others, it is something to remember by. Even a small nick that caused a gash on your knee may take only half a second to cause it to happen, the wound may take a week or two for it to heal and the scar to fade. For some wounds however, the scar remains till the end of their days.

A physical scar shows a blemish on your physical self that the wound, although healed, still lingers in memory with every sight of the scar. It is a reminder of our mistakes, mistakes of others, and/or both. The scar reminds us of the hurt and probably shame. Though some guys would like to show girls of their battle scars, the scar may haunt them when they look in the mirror and see their reminder. Could they somehow avoid those scars? They would wonder. Some guys (and girls) even came up with a story of how they gotten the scars; making the existence of the scars look more acceptable or respected. This reminds me of the "Dragon Tiger Gate". There was this character guy named "Turbo", and he had a scar on this face. He told everyone the story of his scar say that it was from a great battle that he gotten it. In fact, he created the scar himself so that he would scare the people he faces because of his horrible looking scar.

So why is everyone afraid of their own scars? As mentioned earlier, probably because it shows some sort of imperfection to their already imperfect bodies/physical self and remembrance of the pain. Most everyone wants their scars to be removed. It could be done commercially for physical scars but emotional scars? So how do you remove the emotional scars? I use plural for emotional scars because all of us have emotional scars, one type or another. However, whatever the reason for wanting to remove scars, I believe that scars do show us something. The history remembered would help us, guides us. A gash from a knife cut reminds us of how sharp a knife is and why we should be more careful about handling a knife. An emotional scar may (I said may) help them to realize that their actions may hurt others as well and would not do the same emotional damage to others. Other kind of emotional scars remind them of the good times and though the good times have gone, it could still be remembered.

Scars would be there, no matter what. Do take sometime to think about the scars. Stop, smell the roses too. Scars remind you of your past hurt. You will remember that it is healed so don't linger in the past, pretending the wound is fresh. The healed wound is shown when you see/remember the scar(s). It acts as a reminder nothing more. But the gentle reminder reminds us how fragile life is, how fragile we are and we survived those fragile moments. Wound healed slowly for the same reason. The painful but gentle reminder of the hurts is proportional to the wound inflicted. The smaller the wound, the pain is less severe. No matter how small the pain or how painful the pain may be, it acts as a reminder of our mistakes and mistakes of others. Some of the future mistakes could be avoided by doing what you know is going to hurt the opposite way. Some of the future mistakes could be avoided by doing the good things that you never could do in the past. Once the wound is healed, then it's back to the top, a gentle reminder of what we had faced. Learned from the wounds we have and avoid it the best we can and try not to inflict others for we know how painful it is to us.